when you flirt on guys thru text messages, do you mean it?

Usually, but with you, it’s different. With you, I mean it.

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anong applications ang pinaglalaruan mo sa facebook?

None lately. I used to be really hooked to Farmtown and Pet Society and Restaurant City and Legends of the 5 Rings. Nakakatamad din kasi minsan eh.

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It may not look like it, but I’m wearing a TV on my back.

It may not look like it, but I’m wearing a TV on my back.

John Lennon.

John Lennon.

In Summer's Heat - Ovid

    • IN summer’s heat, and mid-time of the day,
      To rest my limbs, upon a bed I lay;
      One window shut, the other open stood,
      Which gave such light as twinkles in a wood,
      Like twilight glimpse at setting of the sun,
      Or night being past, and yet not day begun;
      Such light to shamefaced maidens must be shown
      Where they may sport, and seem to be unknown:
      Then came Corinna in her long loose gown,
      Her white neck hid with tresses hanging down,
      Resembling fair Semiramis going to bed,
      Or Lais of a thousand wooers sped.
      I snatched her gown being thin, the harm was small,
      Yet strived she to be covered therewithal,
      And striving thus as one that would be cast,
      Betrayed herself, and yielded at the last.
      Stark naked as she stood before mine eye,
      Not one wen in her body could I spy.
      What arms and shoulders did I touch and see,
      How apt her breasts were to be pressed by me,
      How smooth a belly under her waist saw I,
      How large a leg, and what a lusty thigh.
      To leave the rest, all liked me passing well;
      I clinged her naked body, down she fell:
      Judge you the rest, being tired she bade me kiss;
      Jove send me more such afternoons as this!

What's at the other end of your rabbit hole? (i.e. What's your dream fantasy location?)

Tokyo, London, New York, Seoul, Paris… rolling in dough!

I’m an urbanite through and through. I love the energy of big, bustling cities. I can’t stay in beaches, forests,or wherever for long. I’ll get restless. I love bumping into people, I love watching people interact with each other, I love bright lights, I love big cities, I love the noise, the energy, the movement of it all. I love the words, I love the incessant consumerist catcalls from store displays, I love the music seeping through other people’s headphones, I love the muck beneath my leather shoes, I love discovering holes-in-the-wall places that serve one-of-a-kind cuisine, I love getting lost in bookstores, I love exchanging glances with beautiful strangers and their lovers. I love the city. I am the city. That is my rabbit hole.

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are you a registered voter?

Yes. Already voted in two elections. Will vote again this year because I want to give “automated polls” a chance to make a difference. Maybe—JUST MAYBE—we have a better chance of a cleaner elections because things will be automated. But this is going to be a make-or-break voting year for me. If there’s still massive cheating despite of the automation, then my heart will be tremendously broken, and I’ll swear off voting.

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was there a point in your life na parang you felt you could've been more pero your family was holding you back (no offense to ha, pa deep lang).

Never. I have a very supportive family who stands by my life choices.

Pero here’s the thing. I didn’t come from a rich family, I came from a low income, lower class household. Yet, my parents NEVER made money an issue when it comes to pursuing my career path/goals. Kahit pare-pareho kaming walang pera, ni-minsan di ko naramdaman yung pressure from them to give up art and literature for more lucrative careers.

Minsan naiinggit ako sa mga batang laki sa yaman kaya nakakakuha sila ng suporta para sa “art” nila. Mga magulang ko di kaya akong bilhan ng dslr para sa “photography”, o kung ano pa mang gastusin.

Kaya sobrang laki ng pasasalamat ko sa parents ko kasi hindi man nila mabigay sa akin mga gadgets o kung ano pa mang tools of the trade na kailangan ng mga artists tulad ko, binibigay naman nila ng buong-buo ang bagay na pinakamahalaga sa lahat: walang kamatayan at walang pagdududang pagsuporta.

Talent lang puhunan ko, at suporta ng pamilya ang abono.

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nanonood ka ba ng gossip girl?

Dati nanonood ako. Season 2 ata ako tumigil. Walang time. Pag nakaluwag, I’ll watch it again.

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kung pawisin ka, bakit dami mong pics na naka long sleeves?

Kasi I’m confident enough to wear long sleeved shirts thanks to Gilette gel stick which I use! :)

Tsaka para di kita mga needlemarks sa braso ko.

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Nahihirapan ka ba maging pogi?

Minsan. Pero dinadala ko na lang, wala naman akong ibang choice kundi dalhin eh. Sana lang, paminsan-minsan, maunawaan ng mga tao yung sitwasyon ko, kasi ako, bilang pogi, minority ako eh. Marginalized. Madalas nasusubject kaming mga pogi sa mga hate crimes because of our “otherness”.

Alam ko, nakakarelate ka. Pogi ka rin eh.

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ano bang poems by a filipino author ang marerecommend mo?mas trip ko silang basahin ngayon kesa sa mga foreign.May something kc sa gawa ng Pinoy na wala sa iba:D

Check out Paolo Manalo’s “Jolography”, and Ricardo De Ungria’s “Decimal Places”.

Glad to hear that! Iba talaga ang gawa ng Pinoy!

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Bakit Siege napili mo pen name? bakit hindi Carlos Malvar na lang?

Kasi, “CJ” ang initials ko. My friends from high school call me Siege way before pa, and I’m a gamer too, so very natural ang dating ng Siege as a nickname to me.

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Napanood mo na ba ang Forrest Gump? Haha. Ano'ng paborito mong scene doon? Eh character? Kung hindi mo pa napapanood, anong movie ang gagawin mong required na panoorin ng buong mundo kung sakaling may kakayahan kang gawin ito?

Yeah! Siguro, favorite ko si Jenny. Kasi she loved Forrest for his uniqueness. I like the scene where Forrest met his son.

ISA sa mga movie na gusto kong gawing required viewing ay ang “Xiu Xiu: The Sent Down Girl”. Have you seen it?

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